Thursday, May 25, 2006

may 26 2006

mike_is_hyperactive: okay, pupunta na ako dlsu, kita nalang tayo..

hmm simple phrase yet so heavy. ahaha emo? emo amputa.. totohanan na to e.. sige magkit ana kayong dalawa. mag enjoy kayo a.. hope the best for you guys.. goodluck!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

may 25 2006

hoon tae. they say hes very funny. kaye likes to make fun of him too.
art charles and simon are their groupmates.
lubna and alexis are her closest friends.
there is a street names agno where dlsu people smoke, street foods are sold here too.
they have a mall called university mall, its beside kfc.
the bookstore is far from their campus.
sasa stays in a condo.
berna is doing fine.
kaye oftens ride with cathy when shes not riding the mrt-lrt.
kaye parks her car in sm, phil am.

dlsu.. update you soon.. dlsu..

i have lots of plans for our college. suppose to be our college..

week before classes:
-buy stuff together
-fix each other's closets
-have a haircut, pedicure, manicure and footspa even
-make up our own sked plans

school year:
-wait outside the classroom of each other til the class gets dismissed
-study together
-make up a barkada with the two of us in it
-make roadtrips
-watch movie together while waiting for our class to start
-share lockers
-help kaye bring her stuff
-kiss each other's cheek before going to one's class
-having to share the same ride for the whole year
- staying up late, calling each other so the other won't sleep while studying
-go on an outing sa xmas break, with our barkada, school barkada
-celebrate monthsarys with others comfort
-buy her lunch in exchange for a kiss
-talk about our same profs in subjs.
-buy clothes togther
-take pics all the time..........
-watch UAAP together rooting for the same team. (admu tayo)
-and ofcourse, make fun of other schoolmates

too many to write...
ung iba naman magagawa e definetly. sana hoping. but ung iba hindi na talaga posible.
scrap it. scrap na un iba jan. hahahaha goodluck nalang samin dalawa no? u shudnt expect something good, cause ul be really fucked up if that expectation didnt happen. its a good thing i still have her.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

may 20 2006

I HATE DLSU! I WANT TO BE THERE BUT I HATE IT. I CAN GO THERE BUT I DIDNT. I SOO HATE DLSU. I WANT TO STUDY THERE BUT I CHOOSE NOT TO. DLSU IS MAKIGN THE SPACE BETWEEN US BIGGER. I JUST FREAKING HATE DLSU! I HOPE IT BURNS. I HOPE! I FUCKING HATE DLSU! FUCKING HATE THEM! I FUCKING HATE MYSELF TOO. DLSU IS A WAY BETTER SCHOOL THAN UST. BULLSHIT!!!!! UST SUCKS AS WELL. I SOO WANTED TO GO TO DLSU. I SOO WANTED TO HAVE FRIENDS FROM DLSU. I WANT TO STUDY IN DLSU BUT FOR SOME REASON, I CANT AND I DONT KNOW WHY. I SO FREAKING HATE MYSELF. I HATE EVERYTHING! I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF. PLESE SOMEBODY HELP ME. QUICK. IM DYING. I FEEL LIKE IM BURNING. I SO HATE COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111 PUTANGINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. SHOW ME SHOW ME THE RIGHT PATH FOR ME. I WANT TO HAVE IT. I WANT TO GO TO DLSU BUT FOR SOME REASON I CANT.

I WISH THAT WE'RE TOGETHER.. STARING AT THE SKY THINKING NOTHING.. FOREVER SCENE I'LL NEVER REGRET HAVING. I CAN MY LIFE FOR MILLION OF YEARS JUST DOING THAT WITH YOU..

I SO HATE COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111 I NEED TO DIE. I HAVE TO DIE. I NEED TO. SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE

IM CRYING. I NEED SOMEONE DESPERATELY. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK ME OUT OF THIS. I WANT YOU BUT DLSU IS MAKING STUFF REALLY DIFFICULT FOR US. 1 DAY YOU'LL SEE WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY. ILL MAKE USE OF MY TIME WITH YOU. I WANT TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER. I HATE IT! I HATE THIS DLSU THING! STOP SAYING THAT NA "THEN GO THERE!" CAN'T EXPLAIN IT!!!!! I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING TO ME. I CANT GO THERE FOR SOME FUCKIGN REASON! A REASON I MYSELF DOESNT EVEN KNOW! ITS SO FUCKING HARD! IM SO FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW! I WANNA DIE. PLEASE PLEASE. I WISH THAT WE'RE TOGETHER SO NOTHING CAN STOP US. I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING. SAME THING HUH? EXCEPT THAT UST IS MAKING THINGS HARD FOR YOU. BOTTOMLINE COLLEGE IS SO FREAKING STUPID! TRUE WE'LL LEARN STUFF ROM COLLEGE. WE EXCEL BECAUSE OF COLLEGE! BUT THE IDEA OF US BEING SEPERATED FROM COLLEGE IS SO STUPID!!!!!!!!!! NO IM STUPID! SEE IM THE THING FUCKING EVERYTHING UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT FUCKING TRUST!!!!!!!!! LSDKFJ;'AES JLKFDKJ;ALS;FDJL;LKEWAHJNF;L KSDJ I JUST SO HATE EVERYTHING NOW. PLEASE HELP ME IM DESPERATE

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

may 15-16 2006

may 15
bad day. whole day away.
went to staines to shop. bought 2 shirts and 1 trousers. all for 25 pounds
went home by myslef to chat with kaye pero away lang

bad day. ...period...

may16
stayed at home until 3pm
got pissed off, went to hounslow to cool off
bought something for us
went back home got pissed off again
chatting with kaye now, still pissed

still,, bad day.. wala na akong masabi nakakapikon mga tao lahat sila

ayaw na away lagi nalang.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

may 14 2006

waited for kaye till 4am.
chatted with kaye. conversation was nice! :D
slept til 12
woke up went online, chatted with kaye again, although the start was a bit sad.
watched kaye's sound show ;p
went to hounslow central while texting kaye
went back home ate longganisa for dinner
watched naruto the movie un you tube.

ang saya saya ng araw na to. di kami nagaway!!!! ano ano kaya nyo ba un. she also told me na kaya siguro mainit ulo namin parehas lagi kasi namimiss lang namin ng sobra isa't isa. saya saya. nilambing rin niya ako kanina. hahahaha tapos napasubo siya sa sinabi niyang ibabalik nya na buhay ko. hahahaha!! peace :D i love you bebe!!! :D SPECIAL DAY TO.. kaye kaye, wag ka labas sa 20!!! hahaah please?!?! kasi nabasa ko sa cosmo ung saggitarius on may 20 daw, makikipagflirt ka with your destiny. eh hahaha pano un wala pa ako?!?! e ako un destiny mo
mali dapat un cosmo hahaha!!! hahahahahahaha!!! tapos sa 27 daw ul be given another chance hmm labo?? hahahaha wala lang.. di talga kami nagaway nayun puro lokohan. just like old times :D i sure hope tita and tito will like me.:D hay cant wait. oh yeah. my parents are plannin to go to hongkong id ont know when but they said na dadalin nila kami lahat cousins bf gf etc. meaning il be goin to hongkong with kaye :D hahahaha ang sayaaaaaaaa!!!! hmms ana payagan na si kaye nun :D gagawin ko laaht para magustuhan ako ng parents nya pra narin payagan siya suamam sakin sa hongkong :D hahahaha inggit kayo? bilan nlng namin kayo pasalubong hahahahaha!!! gunayt :D

ayaw na away lagi nalang. ok na to ganto nlng sana lagi./

Saturday, May 13, 2006

may 13 2006

woke up early this morning.
etong morning na to ung pinaka sad,natanggap ko na pinaka masakit galing sayo.
"i won't give up"
bought my baby a new jacket.
went to kiko's house and ate dinner there.

sad parin motie mo.. sobrang hirap talga ng situation motie ngayon hahahahaha!!! :c
hmm parang tama nafeel ko na nga na hindi ka akin. tulad ng sinabi mo. hahaha haaaaaaaaay
aantayin nalang kita. bye bye. inaantay kita ngayon mag ol. kasi usapang natin 5.30am jan :D hehehe can't wait. sorry hun damot motie haay

ayaw na away lagi nalang.

Friday, May 12, 2006

may 12 2006

still up until 7am cause i was talking to my love.
woke up again by 11am waited an hour for my turn on the computer.
chatted wwith kaye the whole day.
got really pissed of beacuase of someone.

now it's 11 pm and before i go to sleep i just wanna say something. wala lang, mahirap walang kausap. grabe. hindi ko talaga alam kung ano plano samin dalawa. sobrang mahal na mahal ko siya pero bakit parang hindi na kami nagkakasundo. well ako lang naman nakakabasa nito, someday meron rin isang tao na makakabas nito ikaw un kaye. kanina narinig ko na ung painter's song. norah jones. masaya ako kakantahin mo sakin un. pero wala lang before we even met feelingpainter ka na e. so uhmm it only means meron before ko. i love you so much.. mahal na mahal kita.. grabe motie = skirt. hahahaha di ko parin tanggap un hahahaha!!! well mali ung hahaha na yan poser ung hahaha. sad talaga ako. i really love you. thanks painter! i love you so so so so much. i hate him kilala mo na. hindi siya worth it na kaibigan. hmmm kuwari nalang nababsa mo. hmm mali un dapat kunwari kausap ko sarili ko.. so motie? kamusta ka naman? hahaha miss na miss mo na si kaye no?? hahaha halata naman e. kung ano ano nanaman naiisip mo? bakit hindi mo nalang pakwalan si kaye??? bakit hindi mo kaya? bakit ganun? im so fucked up right now. at nakakinis kasi kahit ung pinaka mamahal mong tao parang hindi nararamdaman un. tuloy tuloy tuloy well di ko cya ma blame. bahala na ill still keep on hanging baby. i love you so much. sige tom un iba antok na ako.. nyt!

ayaw na away lagi nalang.